Do you ever wonder if God really heard your prayers? If you are waiting on a miracle, or simply trusting God for something BIG, read this right now.........
You will get through this!
The sun has finally come up, after a long night of questions and tears. Like you, I have struggles, fears and mountains I must climb. Sometimes those mountains are so high, they block the light of hope on my path.
I'm hesitant to pray this morning, not because I don't want to, but because I'm mentally and emotionally spent! Pacing the floor all night didn't solve any of my issues but for some reason I kept at it. One question lingers in my head as I finally kneel down, "did God even hear me last night?"
I can't find the words to say, so I play my favorite worship song and I just rock slowly to the melody. Tears fill my eyes. I feel so broken. I sing along these words "all I want is you to fill me from the inside, be glorified, be lifted high" suddenly my tears become joyful and I'm overwhelmed by Gods gentle presence in my room.
I raise my voice and my hands to praise God and reach for more of Him. After a few moments I'm still, just totally still in His presence. The song ends and The Holy Spirit says to me "I always listen, I'm always here daughter. Trust me, I'm right here". Now I can see the light bursting through this mountain.
I got up with a new assurance, knowing that God was not ever leaving me and knowing that someway, somehow-I was going to get through this. My friends, whatever it is that your facing, God is with you and you will make it through this. Continue in prayer-keep your communication with God open. Prayer will keep your perspective focused and strengthen you. Prayer will give you strategies and answers. Prayer will help you, to see the light in any situation.
Where do you pray in your home? Do you play music in your times of communing with God?
Meditation Verse: (I Chronicles 16:11 -look to the lord and His strength, seek his face always)
Oh that dreaded moment, when the doctor pulls out that stick and tells you to say "aaah"! I honestly hate this moment above all moments in the doctor's office. I have gagged five times to many and it has left me mentally scarred.
Every time a doctor asks me to open wide, I cringe and my brain flashbacks to those embarrassing moments of gagging. I pause, I hesitate and even anticipate that some gagging might be on the way!!
The lord began to show me how this ties into the spirit. Recently I had received a word from God that I needed to "open up, open up, open up" and I immediately started to cringe. The thought of me exposing all of me to God, even if just for a moment, made me hesitate. The same way I had been scarred from the doctors office visits, I have been scarred in my own life as well. (I'm sure you have too)
Old scars and wounds can make us cringe at the thought of being OPEN again. Let's face it, being open means your vulnerable and exposed. You hesitate to trust, you hesitate to let go!! But as the Lord revealed this to me, I honesty felt a little silly. I began to think, if I can't trust the one who made me, then who can I trust???
I lifted my hands in surrender as I thought on all the promises God made me through His word. It would be foolish of me to forfeit my blessings, because I was too afraid to open up! So I said lord, here I am, wide open. I surrendered my hesitations and my doubts and just rejoiced in the words that were spoken over my life.
Yes God wants to do amazing things in your life and He wants to use you greatly, but FIRST.....you have to open up. Give God access to ALl( not just some) areas of your life. Trust the Father, He will not hurt or abuse you so there is no reason to fear. Clear out the doubts and walk into your new season. OPEN WIDE!
Recently I came across this amazing song called "Altar" by Psalmist Raine. (YouTube it!) as the song proceeds it speaks of being on the Altar before God as a sacrifice. Immediately I connected with this song! #1 it was playing softly during one of my intimate times with God and it drew me quickly into focus!!
#2 I connected with this song because of its powerful story. Here is a person broken and surrendered to God, as if they were laid out before God on a sacred altar. I love the altar because it is a place of sacrifice and a place of surrender. My agenda and my plans don't have authority on Gods altar.
With my hands raised I began to repeat the words of this song to God as if my own heart were screaming them out in submission "father consume me, you can use me, breathe LIFE into me, here on this altar". I couldn't help but analyze the hidden places of my heart in this moment. Was ALL of me truly on this altar, truly submitted to God??
Humbled in His presence, I look up and give God a fresh YES!! I repent for the "no's" that I have been giving in secret (as if He doesn't know) and I just let go! Made a decision to trust the YES and sacrifice my own will, and take on His.
My friends, I'm not sure how honest your ready to be with God right now, but I challenge you to visit the "altar" of your heart and have an honest dialouge with God. Turn those "no's" to one big YES and lay it all down on the altar. Cry out to Him, trust Him!! Present your body, a living sacrifice, Holy and acceptable to God, which is an act of Worship!💕
Share with me, your ALTAR experience......
Someone reading this Blog today, is in the Fight of your life! Everyday day it seems like another battle and you are doing all you know to do, to STAND. You have survived blow after blow and your knees are bending. The lord says to you today "you will not break". You have what it takes to endure and yes you have lost a lot but it was not in vain! Your not fighting alone, your not standing alone-GOD is with you!!!
Don't quit! Don't give in! Don't break. You have survived too much, to turn back now. The enemies you see today, you will see no more. Glorify God right where you are as you read this. A renewed strength is coming to you NOW, in the name of Jesus Christ. Divine healing is nursing your wounds and you will rise up out of this. You have not been broken down by the devil, you have been made by God.
Take on your new strength and go another round, in complete victory. You have not been abandoned or forgotten. You are right on Gods radar and His hands are working on your behalf. Don't retreat, don't lose hope-GOD is with you.
Elder Kay Starks
Scribe. Prophetess. Wife. Mother. Entrepreneur and Friend! I am completely in LOVE with God and using all the Gifts He has graciously given me, to serve the world.