Oh that dreaded moment, when the doctor pulls out that stick and tells you to say "aaah"! I honestly hate this moment above all moments in the doctor's office. I have gagged five times to many and it has left me mentally scarred.
Every time a doctor asks me to open wide, I cringe and my brain flashbacks to those embarrassing moments of gagging. I pause, I hesitate and even anticipate that some gagging might be on the way!!
The lord began to show me how this ties into the spirit. Recently I had received a word from God that I needed to "open up, open up, open up" and I immediately started to cringe. The thought of me exposing all of me to God, even if just for a moment, made me hesitate. The same way I had been scarred from the doctors office visits, I have been scarred in my own life as well. (I'm sure you have too)
Old scars and wounds can make us cringe at the thought of being OPEN again. Let's face it, being open means your vulnerable and exposed. You hesitate to trust, you hesitate to let go!! But as the Lord revealed this to me, I honesty felt a little silly. I began to think, if I can't trust the one who made me, then who can I trust???
I lifted my hands in surrender as I thought on all the promises God made me through His word. It would be foolish of me to forfeit my blessings, because I was too afraid to open up! So I said lord, here I am, wide open. I surrendered my hesitations and my doubts and just rejoiced in the words that were spoken over my life.
Yes God wants to do amazing things in your life and He wants to use you greatly, but FIRST.....you have to open up. Give God access to ALl( not just some) areas of your life. Trust the Father, He will not hurt or abuse you so there is no reason to fear. Clear out the doubts and walk into your new season. OPEN WIDE!
Elder Kay Starks
Scribe. Prophetess. Wife. Mother. Entrepreneur and Friend! I am completely in LOVE with God and using all the Gifts He has graciously given me, to serve the world.